Tuesday, 9 January 2007
why hello there
Yes I'm still alive, though I admit I was absent for quite some time there. I've been at the beach, looking at the great big pile of stuff I took down to do and not doing any of it. I have work, exciting creative work, plus baby slings and ordered toys to make and letters to write and wonderful things to make with the gifts of books and materials I was given for christmas. I have photos to take of said gifts and all manner of catching up to do.
Instead I have spent two weeks laid out, reading and knitting a completely frivolous project and sleeping all the time. My energy levels are very low and the heat has started to really eat at me which shits me to tears because when I am not pregnant I love nothing more than a sweltering hot night.
I am now counting down the days till baby time - I've reached that point where I am just so darn big and uncomfortable and hot that I'm finding every day an uphill battle. And I am mentally excited about craft, but completely unable to coordinate mind and body in any useful way. The photo below says it all - you could put a little speech bubble out of my mouth saying "Huh?"
I am also failing miserably in the parenting department for this gorgeous kid on the right. While D has taken this opportunity to start pulling our bathroom to bits (yes, literally. Watch those bricks fall!) and all I want is sleep, Amy has started complaining all the time about everything. It was the living end today when after one complaint after the next for an hour or so she decided to chuck a complete wobbly because the other kid swimming in the pool was older than her - "But why does SHE get to be older than me? It's not FAIR!"
I mean really. What's a very pregnant lady with no patience to do? Because screaming shut up at the top of my lungs is so unseemly, don't you think? So I am going for the completely useless nag a thon. Sometimes my lack of creativity is astonishing.
I also want to post something about all these people who seem to leave comments on my blog attributing every dissatisfaction I have to a lack of Christian faith. But I'm too grumpy and time poor to do anything other than a rant that's bound to be misunderstood. So stay tuned.